Her: I don't understand how you can do all of this and still be cheerful Me: I'm faking it? You know how you have a special professional voice for the phone when you're talking business? Her: yes Me: this is the attitude version of it. I'm actually severely depressed like chronically but it's not helpful to lean into that at work. Her: so you can just pretend to be happy? Me: girl I can pretend to be allistic, happy ain't hard after that.