I realized that for the last 6 years majority of my interaction with music has been killed by video essays, critique from YouTube, also million of advises from short videos. I think it's okay to watch tutorials on some things sometimes, but then your recommendation feed turns into "HOW TO MAKE VIRAL MELODIES", "5 SOUND DESIGN TRICKS THAT WOULD MAKE YOUR MUSIC BETTER", and artistic advices on what aesthetic is trending. I've never cared too much about making "viral melodies" or using tools in right way, I just liked messing around, doing what I like doing, making that kind of melodies/sounds that would consist some feeling to me, remind me of something broader than music, but I really don't need watching these videos. Imagine confessing in love to someone important to you, with whom you have developed deep personal relationships. You don't want to see thousands of people doing the same so that you could do it the right way, you don't need any advises, because it's your own intimate feeling. And you know this person better than 1000 of psychologists that reducing this person to some abtract model, when they are giving these advises. And even if it all goes wrong, I don't need these techniques, tips&trips and stuff like that, because that would want me to treat person as an object for my manipulations. So, fuck all that "music making" content side of internet. Making music is intimacy, my personal world&self exploration, one of the ways to be connected to / be part of human culture